Ley, this message has made me confused on so many levels, I don’t even know where to begin. My eyes cant help themselves stop tearing. I can barely notice the words I’m typing onto my own screen. I’m not even able to express how I feel properly, I wouldn’t be able to tell you weather I am sorry, frightened, frustrated, sad, angry, confused, or even happy. First of all Ley I am sorry! I’m Sooooo fucking sorry I wasn’t there for you when you needed some one, to talk to.I’m sooo sorry I wasn’t able to pick you up, protect you and carry you away from what ever is hurting you. I remember, Tuesday we fucking pinky swore that we would go on our date. I honestly wasn’t able to that day, but holy shit I fucking wish did. The next day I sat here waiting for you, hoping you would show up so we could have it that day. I didn’t see you, I did the same thing the next day aswell. I had thought you had forgot about me and you we’re just to busy yourself. As I am thinking about this now, my mind is engulfed with fear. Petrified, at the mere thought of a world with out you. I wouldn’t fucking be able to fucking hug you, or hold your fucking hand, or even talk to you anymore. We wouldn’t be able to share each others stupid lame jokes (that no one else would think is funny) or tell each other how lame and stupid our day was. I’m scared that some one like you doesn’t realize how truly beautiful and strong you are. I fucking love you, Ley you’re there when I need some one to talk about everyday stuff and just need to relax and chill out. Your a fucking amazing and awesome person, and it would fucking tear my heart out if for what ever reason you were taken away from me.No wonder, I’m frustrated, sad, angry, and confused. I can tell you one thing tho. In actuality I’m soo relieved and over joyed that you, Ley, you are still alive. I’m sooo fucking happy that you are still here on this planet with me. Soooo fucking happy that god had the grace and reason to keep your precious life on this wonderful planet of ours, because Ley you have every reason to be alive and no one not even you should fucking tell you otherwise.